Thursday, 28 May 2015

Googling whilst pregnant

You may remember a post I wrote about my obsession with Googling and checking parenting queries on the internet. Even when my own common sense told me the answer, I Googled away and scared myself silly with some of the rubbish that is available on the internet.  You can read about that little habit here

I thought my days of Googling might be reserved for when you need to know where you have seen that actor before, or more times than not, when trying to prove my husband wrong on something.  But then I have had the amazing news that I am pregnant with my second child, and it is like my Googling addiction has taken on a life of its own.  

I always seem to just want to 'check' things.  Even things I secretly know the answer to. But the thing is with the internet, there's kind of alot of views, facts, hoaxes, utter garbage and scaremongering to wade through or you will will become too horrified to continue on your search. It's also readily available, at home, at the park, in the restaurant, and my fingers just seem to be itching to hit that search button. 

A recent Google search I did was 'can you eat cheesecake when pregnant?'. This was after I had eaten one that was half of the size of my daughter's head. The only consensus appears to be that you need to find yourself a micro-biologist to come and test the food for you before you eat it for a definitive answer.  In fact, you should apply this micro-biologist answer to any food related questions including cheeses, eggs, mayonnaise and ice cream.  

I then went and reversed my car into the garage last week.  I had my seat belt on and slightly jolted forward.  I couldn't have been doing more that 3 miles per hour and there was no damage to the car or garage wall. However, off I toddled to Google 'reversing into a wall whilst pregnant'. To my disappointment nobody appeared to have wrote about this EXACT situation on the internet.  What I did find was horrifying stories of car collisions and placenta abruptions.   I telephoned my second Google advisor, my mum, who basically told me to get a hold of myself and go and have a cup of tea. Thanks mum. 

My advice for the whole of pregnancy? Go with your gut instinct.  Failing that, go and ask your mum.  Do not Google, because there will be some woman from Timbucktoo who ate a cheesecake and gave birth to a goat.  You have been warned.  Relax and enjoy your pregnancy. Though if you do need a telephone number for a microbiologist I can hook you up. :-)

Thanks for reading and I would love to hear any Google pregnancy related stories!!!

Tuesday, 26 May 2015

Preschool : An update

Its been quite an emotional journey with my daughter starting preschool. You can read about her amazing first day here and subsequent tears hereIn those first few weeks I really questioned my decision to send her to pre-school.  Even though she was only doing 3 hours twice a week, I was really upset that she was worrying in the morning about going and she kept saying she didn't want to go.  I spoke to one of the teachers who reassured me that she settled well after I left and I should keep on encouraging her and she would get used to the routine.  

At home I kept telling my daughter how she was a big girl now and we got way too many books from the library about starting school and starting pre-school (I sometimes changed the words accordingly).  When we saw school children I told her that they all went to pre-school first and if she kept on going she would then be able to go to big school.  

And then one day it was like something just clicked.  Instead of her usual crying as soon as we got to the door, she went to get her name tag and peg it up, and then she sat on the carpet.  I saw a little tear in her eye but she did not cry.  When I picked her up that day I told her how proud I was of her and she seemed really pleased. 

And as the weeks have passed, she has grown more and more confident.  She smiles and runs into the pre-school now and whilst her little thumb goes straight into her mouth for comfort, she looks so much more relaxed. In September she will receive the government's 15 hours of pre-school sessions, so we will increase her hours. And I feel happy to do that.  
Starting pre-school is such a big step and I think I completely underestimated how long it would take for her to adjust and get used to being away from me.  I think you really need to trust the child care provider you send your child to, and give your child lots of time to adjust.  Its been just over three months since she started and I beam with pride when my daughter tells me of her new little friends or she suddenly bursts into a dance she has learnt at pre-school. I love it, and I can tell she does too.  

Friday, 22 May 2015

Barry M Daylight Curing Polish: Review

I had been searching for a long lasting nail polish to wear for my holidays after giving up on a fantasy of leisurely getting gel nails done (I was very limited on both time and money). I came across the Barry M Daylight curing polishes which promised professional salon gel nails from home without the need for a UV lamp.  It sounded good to me.  

I picked up the shades Do It Like A Nude and Peach For The Stars and then also bought the special top coat which you apply to transform the polish to a gel like shine. The instructions state to apply two thin coats of the colour and finish with a coat of the Daylight Curing Topcoat.  You then wait for the polish to dry in natural sunlight for the polish to cure and give you long lasting hi gloss nails. All of the polishes are removed with normal nail polish remover.   

I found that Do It Like A Nude needed three coats for it to become opaque.  But the drying time was pretty quick and I found once I got to the last nail, I could start again reapplying another coat to the first nail. The top coat added a gorgeous shine to my nails and dried quickly too. 

The formula on my nails definitely looked more high shine and glossy than my usual polishes and its staying power was also longer too.  I had read somewhere that it can give you up to 10 days wear, and whilst that may be true to toe nails, on my finger nails I noticed chips appearing after 4 days, but to be fair, I didn't take any extra care with my nails.  I think on holiday the longevity of the polish would be increased.  

I would definitely recommend giving these polishes a go and they come in a range of pretty colours, and for £4.99 each this is alot cheaper than getting nails done professionally. The polishes are also on currently offer at Boots. For me, the staying power may not be 10 days, but I think the high shine and gorgeous colour more than made up for it. 

Have you tried Barry M Daylight curing polishes? Would love to hear your thoughts in the comments below.  

Thanks for reading, 

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Wednesday, 20 May 2015

Flight Essentials

Hello everyone, I hope you are all well. As you read this I will be somewhere in America on holiday with my husband and daughter.  I thought I'd do a quick post as to my plane essentials. I love the anticipation of holidays, so I have been doing alot of YouTube watching and blog reading to find out what products are recommended for travel.  Without further ado, here's my top flight essentials. 

Soap and Glory Sexy Mother Blusher
I had never tried a cream blush before, but I am now converted.  This blush stick has a lovely creamy texture and blends in easily.  I plan to pop this on before we arrive at our destination so my cheeks will have that pinky glow even if my skin is far from glowing naturally. This is such a convenient stick and less messy than carrying my blush powder and brush. 

I will never use anything other than Dove deodorant.  This is a staple. 

Lip balm and hand cream

Pain relief sachets
As a mum, I always have to be within an arms reach of some kind of pain relief, just in case of sudden fever or pain.  These sachets are fantastic as they contain a single recommended does of paracetamol and ibuprofen. They are the perfect size for popping in your bag and for travel. 

Toothbrush and toothpaste
I am that strange lady that always steals hotel toiletries.  This is a stolen toothbrush from somewhere.  Its perfect for the plane.  Nobody likes fuzzy teeth. 

Origins Drink Up Intensive Overnight Mask
I had read lots of rave reviews of this product so thought I would give it a go. Normally when I travel, no matter how much moisturiser I put on, my skin resembles that of an iguana when I disembark the plane. My plan is to go bare faced for the flight, with just my eyebrows done and some mascara.  I then plan to apply this mask throughout the flight.  The mask is a clear gel, and after only a few minutes of applying it, I find it has sunk into my skin.  It's deeply moisturising and my skin looks healthy and plump after using it. It contains gorgeous ingredients such as apricot kernel, avocado oil and mango butters and it smells delicious. The best bit is you don't have to wash it off as it is absorbed into the skin. 

So that's my plane essentials and I'm ready to go! Are there any flight essentials that I have missed? Comments below please! 

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P.S Yes there are a few I've missed.  Hand sanitiser and baby wipes. Yep. Think that's everything. Bye!

Monday, 18 May 2015

Morning Sickness and my first trimester

Before we begin I think I should do a little disclaimer.  Firstly, this post is not meant to scare anyone or put anyone off having children. This is just a truthful and honest account of the first few weeks of my pregnancy.  Secondly, I cannot emphasise enough how happy, blessed and ecstatic I am to be pregnant.  So whilst my first trimester may have been tough, I wouldn't change a bit of it.  OK, I would like less sickness, but you get my point. 

For the first six weeks of my pregnancy I felt absolutely fine.  I had that amazing feeling of being pregnant and keeping it a secret from the whole world.  I couldn't quite believe that it had happened and pretty much day dreamed about our little new addition all day.  Happy days. Then I hit six weeks.  It was almost to the count of midnight on that sixth week that the nausea started.  I can deal with this, I thought. I've done it once, I can do it again. 

Whichever idiot came up with the word morning sickness has alot to answer for.  It's like saying morning pregnancy, lunchtime marriage, teatime mum.  Exactly.  These things are not limited to one time of day and neither is morning sickness. Though it would do me a huge favour if it were. 

To begin with I had a constant feeling of being nauseas and feeling like I was going to be sick.  I struggled to eat because I didn't want to worsen the horrible sicky feeling. Combined with a horrible metallic taste in my mouth it wasn't good. I relieved the taste by frequently spitting, and my dad even commented I should have a spit bucket because he had saw me do it that often.  Nice. 

To make my myself feel better I would go to bed at a ridiculous time, like 6.30pm because I couldn't stand the sickness feeling.  I would rather be asleep than be awake and experience it. The nausea gradually got worse though, to the point where I felt sick in my sleep and I felt I had no respite from it.  I forced myself to do my everyday tasks but really struggled.  I went past caring how I looked to take and collect my daughter from pre-school, but I think on one particular occasion they hardly recognised me as her mum. Sad times. 

By around 9 weeks the nausea had progressed to me actually being sick, at any time of day, but mainly in the morning and any-time past 3pm. And this is how it has been for the last 5 weeks.  It has really got me down. And the I have felt guilty that it has got me down when I should be really happy.  And then I have felt guilty for not being a good mum to my toddler or good wife to my husband. I just didn't feel like me anymore. 

Whilst my life revolved around either running to the toilet or lying on the toilet floor, my daughter had to either sit next to me playing with her toys or sit watching TV.  I felt so awful and I felt like a terrible mum.  My husband suffered too (though obviously not as much as me).  To start with he had to listen to my constant vomiting, normally when he was eating his tea.  And then there was the fact he hardly saw me.  When he got home from work I was usually in my pjs and lay in bed, crying.  And that's the other thing.  I am a definite crier when I am ill.  I just can't help it.  So you can imagine how many times I've cried.  Oh no, you can't actually, because I've cried so much I think I now hold the world record. 

Through all of this, we hadn't told any friends we were expecting as we wanted to wait until our 12 week scan.  I lied to one friend that I had a sickness bug.  I lied to another that I was really busy and couldn't possibly meet her for lunch.  I then worried that when I did feel better I would have no friends left. 

But for the last week, I have felt different.  The nausea is still there but I am definitely vomiting less.  My energy is returning and I am able to do things that I wouldn't dream of doing a few weeks ago.  I also feel like me again which is amazing. 

I know everyone's pregnancy is very different, but I wanted to share my experience. I think feeling so awful at the start of pregnancy is really at odds with how we think it should be.  We imagine feeling fabulous, looking glowing and being so happy and excited. And whilst I was happy and excited, feeling so ill really impacted how I felt emotionally. If anyone is going through the same, hang on in there.  It does get better. You will get through it. I also think I didn't realise how guilty I would feel for feeling absent from my toddler and absent from my husband and friends.  With hormones all over the place and constant crying it has been tough.  But I think everyone who's had to put up with me is sighing with relief that I'm feeling more myself. Everyone accept my daughter who unfortunately has now perfected a horrible vomiting noise and I think is actually quite disappointed she can't watch the TV much now.  

Whilst I may hold that record for most amount of tears shed, I plan to break that record with happy tears when I get to hold my second baby in November. Hello second trimester, I'm ready for you. 

Friday, 15 May 2015

Blood on Snow by Jo Nesbo : A Review

I had never tried an audio book before, so I was a little apprehensive when Mumsnet Bloggers asked me to listen to Blood on Snow, an audio book, written by Jo Nesbo.  The thought of listening to someone read a book, I don't know, it just didn't really appeal to me.  I am a such a big fan of having something physical to hold and read in front of me. 

The book is read by Patti Smith, and I am not going to lie and say I am completely familiar with her and the whole Punk movement, but I had heard of her.  Her accent reading this book is just amazing to listen to. She has a really husky, thick American accent, and from her first words I was hooked.  I mean its not in many books you read that someone's lying on the floor dead and you already know its the books main character, Olav who's the murderer. 

Olav is a hit-man, and this book tells the story of his life, potential targets and loves. I didn't think I would connect with Olav, mainly as he's male...oh, and a killer.  But unbelievably, I quickly got transported into his world and was rooting for the main character.  I literally had no idea where the plot was going, and this became ever apparent as I thought the book was about to end, but I realised I was only half of the way through. 

I want to give nothing away, because the ending is the most incredible ending I think I have read, well, listened to.  Again, you think you know where its all going, but you really do not.  The ending is wrote in such a beautiful and captivating way, that as Patti Smith read the closing scene, I just sat for moments afterwards thinking about what I had actually just heard.  

There is alot of blood, violence and swearing, but I never felt out of my depth with this book.  I felt Jo Nesbo had the right amount of action, but had cleverly interwoven it with breathtaking scenery or attention to character detail that it never felt too much. 

As for an audio book, I would certainly listen to another one again.  I think Patti Smith read the book beautifully and it certainly added another dimension to the book. It was actually a real luxury to relax and put in my headphones and be completely transported into Olav's world.  I cannot recommend this novel enough. You can listen to Patti Smith read the opening excerpt from Jo Nesbo's Blood on Snow here, its only a minute long, but I challenge you not to want to hear more! 

Have you read Blood on Snow? Would you ever try an audio book?
Comments always welcome below and thanks for reading, 

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I was kindly sent the audio for Blood On Snow by Mumsnet Bloggers, this review is entirely my own thoughts and opinions. 

Wednesday, 13 May 2015

Where is Laura Evelyn Bee?

To say I have been slightly absence on my blog over recent months may be a little bit of an understatement. From blogging three times a week, interacting on social media and taking part in lots of blogging linkies to actually not even turning on my computer for several weeks. My blog is such a personal thing for me.  It reflects my creative side and its where I share my thoughts and feelings. It also means my blog directly reflects how I am feeling.  

If you are thinking I may have won the lottery, become a blogging superstar, or may have been cruising around the world, you will be sorely disappointed.  I have actually spent the majority of the last 7 weeks camped out on the bathroom floor.  Either vomiting, crying, feeling nauseous, or, at my worst, a mixture of all three.  I told you it wasn't going to glamorous.  And the reason for all of this? A little miracle has happened.  Baby Bee is due November 2015, and I cannot capture in words how amazing and happy we are to be welcoming another little baby into our family. 

I also cannot put into words how blessed I feel to have this little miracle growing inside me.  I know only too well the pain of trying for a baby and the pangs in your heart when things maybe don't go to plan. So even though I have cried and sobbed more times than I can remember in the last few months and my husband has looked at me more than once with the look of 'who are you and what have you done with my wife', I have held onto the fact how lucky I actually am to feel so sick. 

I think I will write another blog post all about my morning sickness for anyone who is interested and I won't go into it now and put you off your breakfast/lunch/tea/cake...delete as applicable. But suffice to say I am just about starting to feel human.  I am actually beginning to feel like me again, not some shadowy, sicky version of myself, and I say that without a single ounce of over-exaggeration. 

On top of this amazing news, we also have huge travel plans at the moment and as you read this, on Saturday we fly out to New York with family to celebrate my sister's 30th birthday.  From New York, me, my husband and daughter fly onto San Francisco and are then heading on an epic road trip down the Pacific Coast Highway Route 1 all the way to San Diego.  Such exciting times!!!!

I am sorry to readers who have wondered where the hell I have been, and I feel I have also lost a few readers too who maybe assumed my blogging days were numbered.  To say I wasn't feeling particularly creative is an understatement! But onwards and upwards.  

Thank you for bearing with me. I am so so excited and happy to be back blogging, and sharing such a special and amazing time with you all. 

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